the only thing I'd change would be the ending
Sarah Small
Dear Reader   -- by Kim Addonizio
Tonight I am amazed by all the people making love 
while I sit alone in my pajamas in a foreign country 
with my dinner of cookies and vodka. And I am amazed 
that my own country still exists, though I am not in it 
to speak its language or break its drug laws. How astonishing 
to realize that I am not the glass being shattered 
on the street below, or the laughter that follows it; 
I'm not even one of the congregation on my small TV, 
getting the Lord's good news, though I can reach 
the screen by leaning forward, and touch 
the wavering line of each transfigured face. I tell you 
I can't get over it sometimes, I still have trouble 
believing that an egg deep inside my own body 
went and turned into someone else, who right now 
is on a tour boat on the river, having forgotten 
how she used to hold on to my legs whenever I tried 
to leave the room. Right now, somewhere I am not, 
the history of the world is being decided, 
and the terrible things I'd rather not think of 
go on and on without stopping, while I separate 
the two halves of another cookie and lick 
the creem filling, and pour myself one more 
and drink to you, dear reader, amazed 
that you are somewhere in the world without me, 
listening, trying to hold me in your hands. 
The Beautiful Poem   --  Richard Brautigan
I go to bed in Los Angeles thinking 
about you. 
Pissing a few moments ago 
I looked down at my penis 
affectionately. 
Knowing it has been inside 
you twice today makes me 
feel beautiful. 
(3 am, January 15, 1967) 
After We Saw What There Was to See  -- by Lawrence Raab
After we saw what there was to see
we went off to buy souvenirs, and my father
waited by the car and smoked. He didn't need
a lot of things to remind him where he'd been.
Why do you want so much stuff?
he might have asked us. "Oh, Ed," I can hear
my mother saying, as if that took care of it. 
After she died I don't think he felt any reason
to go back through all those postcards, not to mention
the glossy booklets about the Singing Tower
and the Alligator Farm, the painted ashtrays
and lucite paperweights, everything we carried home
and found a place for, then put away
in boxes, then shoved far back in our closets.
He'd always let my mother keep track of the past,
and when she was gone—why should that change?
Why did I want him to need what he'd never needed?
I can see him leaning against our yellow Chrysler
in some parking lot in Florida or Maine.
It's a beautiful cloudless day. He glances at his watch,
lights another cigarette, looks up at the sky.